you are so amazing. i love being in a relationship with you :)
i’m sorry if i hurt you. i swear that was never my intention. i’m sorry if i made things awkward between us. i never wanted that to happen. okay? i had to tell you, it was the right thing to do. I new it was going to be hard, and awkward, and it sucks. but i had to! it was only fair to you. i’m sorry i don’t like you. you’re an amazing guy and an amazing friend! i just like someone else… this is killing me. i can’t stand that fact that i know i hurt you and that you’re mad at me or what ever. what ever your feelings are for me now.. i understand. i’m just really really really sorry.
i had the most amazing time last night! :) i have never hung out with your guys before, but i hope that i can more often! i mean, playing halo isn’t my favorite thing to do, but i didn’t mind it, cause you guys made it fun.. even for me since i had no idea what i was doing. and watching how i met your mother on the couch while eating cookies, was definitely a good time. but i had never really hung out with you before, but i’m really happy i decided to go. we cuddled literally the entire night :) and it was great. and i feel like we both know that there is a possibility that something could go somewhere, but we don’t say anything about it and just keep on flirting. honestly, when i got home i couldn’t stop smiling.. like a loser. look what you’re doing to me.
thanks for saying happy birthday to me. oh wait. you didn’t. i walked right by you multiple times that day and you looked at me, and then looked right away. maybe you forgot and that’s totally fine! i don’t want to be the bitch who freaks out cause someone didn’t saying happy birthday to her. but we did go out for almost 7 months… it would have been nice. and my friend and i were standing RIGHT next to you, as she was screaming happy birthday. you turned your back to us. And then you promised to see the show that i was SOOO excited to be in. you missed it. we may be completely over. but it still would have been nice..
i remember it like it was yesterday.
you were my “valentine” since neither of us had one, so we decided to go out for ice cream after rehearsal on a “date”. and it was sooooo much fun. i remember having a blast with you and wondering why we haven’t hung out before. we even started our list of a bunch of things for us to do together. i think we started that list a little bit before our “date”.. but added a lot to it that night. you are sooo funny, so sweet, charming, adorable, cute, incredibly nice, and i could keep going. when we went home you walked me to my house and we chilled outside for like 30 minutes. and then you asked me out. not gonna lie, i was pretty shocked, but it was sooo sweet! i regret saying no, and i don’t. i don’t because i knew that i wasn’t ready for a relationship at that point. but i do regret saying no because i feel like then you gave up on it and completely forgot about it and moved on. but i don’t want you to move on! and at the moment.. i’m really scared that you did. ugh i just want to be with you. and i just want you to know that.
